Sunday, October 25, 2015

You said WHATT???!!! Things never say to someone with Chronic Lyme Disease



            I first want to start off with saying do not feel bad if you have ever said any of the following statements to me pr anyone else at one point or another. I know everyone has good intentions but, for me, there are just some things I do not want to hear. So this blog is going to be about what NOT to say and what to say instead. All of these statements have been personally said to me and I would like to explain my Lyme point of view to you so that you may understand how your words can encourage me or discourage me. Again, I know you all have the best of intentions and I don’t hold anything against anyone. This blog is simply an explanation of different statements and why it is not a good idea to say them to anyone who has Lyme Disease or a chronic illness in general. The second part of this blog post will be pointed towards what to say instead and how to convey what you want to say in a way that will encourage a person who is suffering from Lyme Disease.

What to never say:
1.  “But you look so good!” Sounds harmless enough right? It is a compliment right? WRONG. Basically what you just said is, “You can’t be sick. You look perfectly fine and good even.” People who suffer from a life altering disease do not want to feel like all the fighting they do every minute of every day is to ultimately be rejected and stepped on because people on the outside do not see the pain in our eyes. If we turned our bodies inside out and you saw everything we went through just to get out of the house you’d never say such a thing. We may look good on the outside and, while it is nice to hear we look good, it’s also a bit of a discouraging thought knowing no one knows just how difficult our lives can be.


2.  “I wish I could take naps whenever I wanted.” This statement is (hopefully) pretty self-explanatory but unfortunately I can’t count how many times I’ve been told this by people my age and people much older than me. Yes, naps are great. I’m not going to deny that but naps are only amazing when you can have the choice of not taking a nap. Just like toddlers, they never want to take naps but they never have the choice either. They simply need their sleep. It's the same with Lymies. We need our sleep to recover. It is not our choice but our body's need. Most people have a choice to either take a nap or participate in something productive. If it were up to me, I’d choose to not nap and be productive. You may be jealous of me being able to take a nap whenever my heart desires but I am jealous of you because you have a body that is not exhausted 100% of the time. Which leads me into #3.

3.  “I get tired too.” Oh boy, where do I start on this one. Lyme Disease exhaustion is different from normal people tired. Lyme fatigue is beyond words. I remember days where getting out of bed and taking a shower were enough to put me back to bed for another 3 hours. Lyme fatigue is physically and mentally brutal. If we fight the fatigue and not rest when needed we tend to just make ourselves sicker and then it takes even longer to recover. I know when people say this they are just trying to make us feel understood and not alone but, trust me, unless you have Lyme it is hard to imagine this level of exhaustion. A better example of this fatigue would resemble the spoon theory.  The picture below explains the spoon theory. Basically, each activity of the day costs (x) number of spoons and you only have (Y) number of spoons allotted each day so once you run out of spoons then you borrow from the next day’s supply.


4.  “Have you tried taking____________?” Again, I know you are trying to help but whatever you are suggesting we have probably already tried. Thank you for thinking of me and what might help but please just let me and my doctor work out what is best for my body.

5.  “Are you better yet?” Thanks for hoping I feel better because I’m right there with you! I want to feel better just as much as you want me to or more but this is a very long process so no I am not better yet….thanks for reminding me though.

6.  “How are you feeling?” Prepare to be lied to. No one wants to hear “I feel horrible, thanks for asking.” I am going to plaster on a smile and say “I’m good” and quickly resort to, “How are you?” to change the subject. Stop making me lie to you and just stop asking. Trust me, I will tell the world when I feel great because I will be just as excited as you are! Otherwise ask anyone but me how I feel.


7.  “It’s all in your head.” If you say this always have good dental insurance and be ready to duck because my fist just might accidentally come into contact with your jaw. Sorry, irritability is not a symptom of Lyme it’s a symptom of being around stupid people. It is not all in my head. It’s all in my head, gut, muscles and anywhere else the spirochete can burrow into and destroy. My body is being destroyed from the inside out and you think I’m faking? Why the heck would I give up my life, my friends, and my dreams to fake a sickness that most doctors don’t even believe exists? If you say this to me just know how deeply five words can hurt. Thanks for believing me when I need you the most.

8.  “You just need to eat healthier and get more exercise.” That’s what got me here in the first place. I was a girl who ran cross country, rode horses, participated in Tae Kwon Do and held a very active lifestyle. I got a tick bite while trail running and two years later I was diagnosed with chronic late stage Lyme Disease. This little tick bite changed my life. I got the bite while having a healthy lifestyle. Thanks for the advice but no thanks that will not cure all my problems.

9.  “Feel better!” or “Get well soon.” I wish. I wish it was that simple. I wish it was like a stomach bug or something you can get over in a few days but it is not. Nothing about Lyme disease is simple. It’s long, laborious and downright hard to get through. When someone says this to me they are discounting all my hard work and all my fighting to simply “get well soon.” If that’s all I wanted I would go buy myself a stupid balloon that said that.

10.  “It could be worse” or “At least it’s not cancer” (deep breath 5…4…3…2…1…) you are right. It could be worse and at least it is not cancer. Cancer is horrible. Lyme disease is horrible. If you think about it there are many similarities between the two diseases. 1. Cancer treatment and Lyme treatment make the patient horribly sick. 2. Both can be fatal if not caught early enough. 3. Both destroy your body from the inside out. I am happy I do not have cancer and I’m glad I don’t have it worse than I do but I would still like you to acknowledge the pain I go through each day as well. I do not want attention but simply acknowledgment that you understand and you believe me.

What to say instead:
1. “I love you.” Simply hearing this statement makes my day just that much better! It makes my heart light up and gives me energy to fight.

2.  “I believe you.” Oh how I love this. I love to know you truly believe and know what I say is true. Believing in me and my abilities and what I tell you about my disease is an amazing feeling.

3.  “How can I help?” This one makes me smile. I will usually never let you help but it is nice to know I have someone standing by my side while I do it myself.

4. “I understand.” This one is a big deal for me. Understanding that I am doing everything I can to get better is huge. I need people to truly and wholeheartedly understand when I have to cancel plans. You have no idea how horrible I feel about having to cancel. For every time I have to cancel something, Lyme has won in that moment. That is absolutely unacceptable. Our plans were very important to me and I never want you to feel like I have blown you off. That is not what I want but unfortunately I cannot predict when I will have bad days. So if we had plans that I had to cancel please please understand I am just as disappointed/upset as you and I am really sorry.

5.  “I am proud of you.” This one is nice to hear as well. Sometimes I get upset with things that I had to give up because of Lyme. For example, school. Most of my friends went off to college somewhere and are having a great time. I’m working my butt off to get through 3 classes this semester. I don’t have any outstanding accomplishments at this point in my life. I don’t play sports or participate in any extracurricular activities, no scholarships or awards either. To hear that someone is proud of me despite my limitations is amazing. If you asked little Kelsey what I thought my life would be like now I would say “off to college somewhere and doing something with my life.” Instead, I am sitting here in my living room writing a blog about my life as a Lyme disease patient. It's not what I expected but this is God’s plan for me. Hearing someone is proud of me is just affirmation that I am doing exacting what I need to be doing right now - following God’s plan.

6. “Thinking of you.” Whether it be a text or a tap on the shoulder I feel the love when this is said. I don’t care what the thoughts were. I don’t even care if you were plotting my murder I just feel special to know I am important enough to be a part of your thoughts in that moment.

7.  “I’m here for you.” This is a good one for when you have no idea what to say. It’s perfect for every situation! This statement is like all the other statements all wrapped up into one. I know you believe me, I know you love me and want to help me and I know you understand what I’m going through. Thank you for being here for me it is a huge encouragement to know I have people on my side fighting for me and with me.


In the end, please be aware of what you say and how it can be interpreted through a Lyme point of view. 

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